For those who don't know I am a Christian, an unconventional Christian but I am a Christian non the less. To say that out loud sometimes isn't always wise as some people take a hundred steps back from you and immediately label you as judgemental and boring and I know this as I once labelled church goers and heavy Christians as judgemental and boring, I can't speak for your experiences or view points I can only speak about mine and from that I can stand and say the not judgemental, they far from boring and that stereotype is wrong.
When I fell pregnant I lost everything, friends, my dream career, my boyfriend and my love for life. I was so bored and so lonely I started going to church with my parents on Sunday morning, obviously keeping my pregnancy hidden as I knew I would never be accepted.
Wrong there to, a bunch of the youth leaders opened there arms and stood by me through my pregnancy and now are some of my closest friends, they care about me and more importantly they care about my son and I take great pride and it gives me great peace that my son will grow up around a great group of loyal and honest men.
A few of us are getting together once a week and going through a series called "Sex etc", whether you married, single or on the hunt, I would suggest it, you can download it here - Sex etc. Even after all I had been through with them I was still nervous to delve into this subject on a personal level and talk about my thoughts on the subject but once again proven wrong.
The point of this post is, I never looked at sex or marriage in this light before and I never realised how serious it was. Now having Aiden and him growing up in a broken home was an eye opener and I realised why God made that rule, but it's so much more than that and I wish the world hadn't made it just a game, just an appetite to feed and just something people do. I wish it wasn't so easy for people to walk out of marriages and hurt people they supposed to love, I wish the word 'family' meant more to people, I wish less children had to be collateral damage in adults escapades and I wish these things not for you to see or feel bad, I don't even expect anyone to understand, I simply wish I saw these things before, I wish I understood a long time ago but wishing doesn't change anything but choices from now can change my future.